So seriously, what will it take for me to stop being such a blogging slacker? A fancy new blog perhaps???
What has been happening with me? SO much...a combination of great and not so great.
Dwiggins and I are writing a book....The Adventures of Mr. Dwiggins! All proceeds from the sale of the book will go to Sweet Binks Rabbit Rescue!! My fitness modeling career is taking off and I'm super excited about that! Hey, can I say I'm a model now??? :) My Beachbody business is also very successful and getting better by the day! The other day someone told me that I inspired them! 7 lbs lost, and I inspired them! That is what it's all about people and that is why I do what I do!!!! I also recently started running again, something I have not done since my marathon in 2004! I ran my first 5K in so many years last weekend!!! I am super proud of myself and I think the fact that everything is stronger is helping with the pain factor.
The pain factor....Can I just say UGH!!! After many many years of not knowing why I had chronic pain, I finally found a doctor that figured it out...we think. So I am dealing with the knowledge that I am injured and have been for some time. It is not easy for me to lay low and let things heal when I have so many goals and aspirations. I will not lie, some days are better than others. Today was not such a great day. It rained, and with rain brings on more pain. But sitting around wallowing will get me nowhere right? You can't keep a good woman down!!!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Malted Peanut Butter Balls...light bulb moment!
After my photo shoot on Friday I had to go to Whole Foods to pick up some things. As I was wheeling my cart past the bulk section these peanut butter malted milk balls caught my eye! Well, my friends, I was on a strict diet for many weeks so these balls looked might tasty! SO....I decided to get a few. And I proceeded to eat them on the way home. Now this may seem very normal to some. But as I was eating them I had a lightbulb moment.....
As some of you may know, I have suffered from eating disorders since I was in my 20's. What I realized in that moment of peanut butter goodness was that I have changed. Now, of course, I still have issues that need working on, but for the most part I am a changed gal!!! The old me would have eaten those milk balls and felt so guilty for doing so that I would have come home and exercised for hours on end and probably starved myself for the day and maybe the day or two after. Or, it could have gone the opposite way and I would have felt like such a failure that I binged for days on end. Friday I ate them, enjoyed them and moved on. I considered them part of the cheat meal I was to have later and only felt slightly guilty about it. Of course, part of the old me still exists. I got home and thought...I should go for a walk.....And I probably would have had other responsibilities not been calling my name. So yes...still stuff to work on. But overall I am pretty thrilled with the new me!!!
So why have I changed? I'm not completely sure but I think becoming more comfortable in who I am has helped. And I really do owe this to Beachbody and the structure of their programs. I am definitely a work in progress, as are we all, but I just wanted to share with everyone what I experienced while eating those fabulous malted peanut butter balls! And they were truly fabulous.....
As some of you may know, I have suffered from eating disorders since I was in my 20's. What I realized in that moment of peanut butter goodness was that I have changed. Now, of course, I still have issues that need working on, but for the most part I am a changed gal!!! The old me would have eaten those milk balls and felt so guilty for doing so that I would have come home and exercised for hours on end and probably starved myself for the day and maybe the day or two after. Or, it could have gone the opposite way and I would have felt like such a failure that I binged for days on end. Friday I ate them, enjoyed them and moved on. I considered them part of the cheat meal I was to have later and only felt slightly guilty about it. Of course, part of the old me still exists. I got home and thought...I should go for a walk.....And I probably would have had other responsibilities not been calling my name. So yes...still stuff to work on. But overall I am pretty thrilled with the new me!!!
So why have I changed? I'm not completely sure but I think becoming more comfortable in who I am has helped. And I really do owe this to Beachbody and the structure of their programs. I am definitely a work in progress, as are we all, but I just wanted to share with everyone what I experienced while eating those fabulous malted peanut butter balls! And they were truly fabulous.....
Thursday, November 4, 2010
I am woman...hear me ROAR!!!
I am have been wondering all week what I was going to blog about, thus the not blogging! It finally came to me today as I was driving home. I was reflecting back on the last two months which have been ridden with illness in the Conley fur children household. And I also thought about the preparation for the photo shoot last week. Now, I rarely pat myself on the back but I think I deserve a great big WOOHOO for sticking with my training program and dieting regimen while playing nurse, taxi, homemaker, cook, maid, bookkeeper etc..... Oh, and I did not mention various other factors that were playing out behind the scenes. A refinance, coaching stuff, etc.... Some would have just thrown in the towel when they were working on no carbs and cleaning up cat vomit. But me? NO...I had a goal and gosh darnit I was sticking to it. I do wonder if I would have done any better at the shoot if those factors had not played a role, but to overthink things would be pointless.
So what did I learn from this experience? Well.....I learned that I am one strong chick! If I can do what I did and get through it, then I can do anything I set my mind to! I think I knew this before, but it was just reaffirmed and put in the forefront of my mind. It also made me reflect on what I really want to do with this body. I train hard. I work hard. And I would like to do something with that. Of course, I do it for me, but I am only going to live once and I want to make the best of all my hard work. I have been going back and forth about whether I wanted to compete again or model or both. I think for now I would like to focus on the modeling and maybe compete in June. So now I have a goal and it feels great to be working toward something. Nothing may come of it, but atleast I can say I gave it my best. And as we all know, Heather's best comes with alot of other responsibilities, cleaning up cat vomit being one of them!!!
So what did I learn from this experience? Well.....I learned that I am one strong chick! If I can do what I did and get through it, then I can do anything I set my mind to! I think I knew this before, but it was just reaffirmed and put in the forefront of my mind. It also made me reflect on what I really want to do with this body. I train hard. I work hard. And I would like to do something with that. Of course, I do it for me, but I am only going to live once and I want to make the best of all my hard work. I have been going back and forth about whether I wanted to compete again or model or both. I think for now I would like to focus on the modeling and maybe compete in June. So now I have a goal and it feels great to be working toward something. Nothing may come of it, but atleast I can say I gave it my best. And as we all know, Heather's best comes with alot of other responsibilities, cleaning up cat vomit being one of them!!!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Gratitude...Word of the Day!
It hit me this morning while I was in the middle of HIIT 20....3 years ago when I purchased Power 90 to gain some strength back after a surgery I never dreamed I would be where I am today!! I am so grateful for everything I have achieved through Beachbody!
I am making peace with my body and inspiring others to do the same. I am helping others achieve their best health and fitness. There is no greater gift to me than the glowing happiness of someone who has just achieved a goal they have been working so hard towards and knowing I helped support that person. That always makes my day!!
Financial freedom! WOW is the only word I can use to describe it!! Achieving it for myself and helping others do the same is truly a blessing!! Financial freedom means different things to different people. To me financial freedom means not having to worry. I have worried for far too long about finances and money and making it...all of that worry wreaking havoc on my health, mentally and physically. Financial freedom to me also means the stress melting off of my husbands face as he begins to realize the burden is not all on him!! That, to me, is priceless!!!
And lastly, my physical transformation...which goes along with making peace with my body. I won't lie, it has been a rough road that I still struggle with mentally. But Beachbody has given me the tools to deal with that! For the first time I am ok with ME. That is so liberating!! But another component that I often forget about it is the strength that I have gained through the programs. I purchased Power 90 coming out of a surgery that left me weaker than I'd ever been, partially disabled and in chronic pain. My only hope at that point was to gain back SOME strength. Well....the other day I was lifting 40 pound bags of wood pellets!!! 3 years ago I couldn't even lift my own laundry!!! SO THERE!!! And you know what? I still deal with the pain but I know that the strength that I have gained will get me through it. I feel best when I'm working out...that is pain free time for me, and again, something else that is priceless to me!!!
The journey for me has only just begun and I can't wait to see what it has in store for me!!!
I am making peace with my body and inspiring others to do the same. I am helping others achieve their best health and fitness. There is no greater gift to me than the glowing happiness of someone who has just achieved a goal they have been working so hard towards and knowing I helped support that person. That always makes my day!!
Financial freedom! WOW is the only word I can use to describe it!! Achieving it for myself and helping others do the same is truly a blessing!! Financial freedom means different things to different people. To me financial freedom means not having to worry. I have worried for far too long about finances and money and making it...all of that worry wreaking havoc on my health, mentally and physically. Financial freedom to me also means the stress melting off of my husbands face as he begins to realize the burden is not all on him!! That, to me, is priceless!!!
And lastly, my physical transformation...which goes along with making peace with my body. I won't lie, it has been a rough road that I still struggle with mentally. But Beachbody has given me the tools to deal with that! For the first time I am ok with ME. That is so liberating!! But another component that I often forget about it is the strength that I have gained through the programs. I purchased Power 90 coming out of a surgery that left me weaker than I'd ever been, partially disabled and in chronic pain. My only hope at that point was to gain back SOME strength. Well....the other day I was lifting 40 pound bags of wood pellets!!! 3 years ago I couldn't even lift my own laundry!!! SO THERE!!! And you know what? I still deal with the pain but I know that the strength that I have gained will get me through it. I feel best when I'm working out...that is pain free time for me, and again, something else that is priceless to me!!!
The journey for me has only just begun and I can't wait to see what it has in store for me!!!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Pity Parties...Not Allowed!
I like to think I'm a pretty strong person...but today I lost it a bit. This rain we've been having has not been kind to my back and recently injured shoulder. My idea of recent is a few months ago! And in case you might ask I did complete my workout today, well... because unless I am bedridden I will not miss it. My back actually feels better after exercise...the shoulder not so much!
So I had a bit of a meltdown and pity party for myself. Then I decided to go meditate. Post meditation....Ok I felt a bit better and had a chance to reflect on things...
This is what I came up with.....Despite my struggles, there are others out there that are in more pain than me. Despite my pain, I am able to do most of the activities I love. And despite my pain I have a pretty great life and I'm motivated to make it even greater!
I won't lie...there are going to be not so great days. But on those days, prior to having a meltdown, I am going to try to remember all that I reflected on today.
Pity Parties...Not Allowed!!!
So I had a bit of a meltdown and pity party for myself. Then I decided to go meditate. Post meditation....Ok I felt a bit better and had a chance to reflect on things...
This is what I came up with.....Despite my struggles, there are others out there that are in more pain than me. Despite my pain, I am able to do most of the activities I love. And despite my pain I have a pretty great life and I'm motivated to make it even greater!
I won't lie...there are going to be not so great days. But on those days, prior to having a meltdown, I am going to try to remember all that I reflected on today.
Pity Parties...Not Allowed!!!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Recovery Week...It Does a Body Good!
Can you tell I have to remind myself of this??? And thus, the reason for my blog this evening!
This morning I woke up early because I knew the tile guys were coming to caulk the shower. I wanted to get my workout in first thing. Now I knew that on the schedule was Core 20 and Stretch 10, a recovery week for Turbo Fire. I had planned on doing some Bum Bum too, because well...I have a hard time with recovery weeks even though I know they are good for me!!! But I reminded myself why we have recovery weeks and I crawled back in bed with Maggy, figuring I could fit in my 30 minutes after the tile guys left. AH, it felt so good to go back to bed and REST!!!
The tile guys came and went and I headed upstairs. But I couldn't quite my mind that kept saying...."I think your thighs were touching this morning"! So after Core 20, yes I admit it, I threw in Bum Bum Live! Well...um...I didn't do the full Bum Bum so that's ok right???
The answer is a resounding NO!!! I give this advice to my customers all the time....your body needs the recovery week! It allows your body to rest and it allows your muscles to recover and grow. And perhaps most important of all, it prevents injury! Our bodies need this, especially after going hard core for 3-4 weeks. Now recovery week doesn't mean we sit around on the couch eating donuts! It is active recovery, but recovery nonetheless, and there for a reason.
I am not sure why I have a hard time following my own advice. Probably for the same reason people ask me..."do I have to take the recovery week?" For me, I think it is hard to get over the feeling that I didn't do enough, that I didn't burn enough calories, and oh my goodness...am I going to get fat!!! Oh yes, I still have that mentality hidden in the back of my head, although I do have to admit it has gotten much better! I am, after all, human. Yes, there was a time when I probably wouldn't have eaten this week, knowing I wasn't getting the amount of exercise I usually get. But I am learning to love my body and what it can do for me, flaws and all. But it is a process, one that I continue to work on.
It is Wednesday. I vow to follow the recovery week schedule as written for the remainder of the week because recovery does a body AND MIND good!!!
This morning I woke up early because I knew the tile guys were coming to caulk the shower. I wanted to get my workout in first thing. Now I knew that on the schedule was Core 20 and Stretch 10, a recovery week for Turbo Fire. I had planned on doing some Bum Bum too, because well...I have a hard time with recovery weeks even though I know they are good for me!!! But I reminded myself why we have recovery weeks and I crawled back in bed with Maggy, figuring I could fit in my 30 minutes after the tile guys left. AH, it felt so good to go back to bed and REST!!!
The tile guys came and went and I headed upstairs. But I couldn't quite my mind that kept saying...."I think your thighs were touching this morning"! So after Core 20, yes I admit it, I threw in Bum Bum Live! Well...um...I didn't do the full Bum Bum so that's ok right???
The answer is a resounding NO!!! I give this advice to my customers all the time....your body needs the recovery week! It allows your body to rest and it allows your muscles to recover and grow. And perhaps most important of all, it prevents injury! Our bodies need this, especially after going hard core for 3-4 weeks. Now recovery week doesn't mean we sit around on the couch eating donuts! It is active recovery, but recovery nonetheless, and there for a reason.
I am not sure why I have a hard time following my own advice. Probably for the same reason people ask me..."do I have to take the recovery week?" For me, I think it is hard to get over the feeling that I didn't do enough, that I didn't burn enough calories, and oh my goodness...am I going to get fat!!! Oh yes, I still have that mentality hidden in the back of my head, although I do have to admit it has gotten much better! I am, after all, human. Yes, there was a time when I probably wouldn't have eaten this week, knowing I wasn't getting the amount of exercise I usually get. But I am learning to love my body and what it can do for me, flaws and all. But it is a process, one that I continue to work on.
It is Wednesday. I vow to follow the recovery week schedule as written for the remainder of the week because recovery does a body AND MIND good!!!
Monday, August 16, 2010
Rockin' the White Sports Bra
Honestly, I don't need another sports bra! I can barely close my drawers as it is, but I found myself on the Victorias Secret site today and I saw one that caught my eye. Now, I am one that doesn't like a lot of coverage in my sports bras, even when working out in the privacy of my own home, although I do like some support. I don't know...call me wierd! SO...I ended up buying one in black and one in white.
Now I have not spoken to my photographer in a few months, mainly because we've both been busy. But we do need to do another shoot because the last one, although turning out awesome, left me with green hair! Another story for another day, sad but true!!! What a bummer! But I vowed to make the next shoot KILLER!
WELL, who should email me today out of the blue, but Joe!!! The very same day I bought my fabulous new white sports bra!!! Some day in September....SURE! Time to rock the white sports bra!!!!!
Now do I feel photo shoot ready, heck no!!! So, it is time to really tweak what I've been doing. I know it doesn't need much tweaking, but tweaking nonetheless. And one may ask WHY? Well yes, I would sure like to see myself in a fitness magazine. But if that doesn't happen, well then I can say I did it and I have the awesome pictures to prove it!!! So I guess it is more of a goal for me to look super fantastic and know I did my best to get there!!!
Come September I will be rockin' that little white sports bra!!!
Now I have not spoken to my photographer in a few months, mainly because we've both been busy. But we do need to do another shoot because the last one, although turning out awesome, left me with green hair! Another story for another day, sad but true!!! What a bummer! But I vowed to make the next shoot KILLER!
WELL, who should email me today out of the blue, but Joe!!! The very same day I bought my fabulous new white sports bra!!! Some day in September....SURE! Time to rock the white sports bra!!!!!
Now do I feel photo shoot ready, heck no!!! So, it is time to really tweak what I've been doing. I know it doesn't need much tweaking, but tweaking nonetheless. And one may ask WHY? Well yes, I would sure like to see myself in a fitness magazine. But if that doesn't happen, well then I can say I did it and I have the awesome pictures to prove it!!! So I guess it is more of a goal for me to look super fantastic and know I did my best to get there!!!
Come September I will be rockin' that little white sports bra!!!
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