Malted Peanut Butter Balls...light bulb moment!

After my photo shoot on Friday I had to go to Whole Foods to pick up some things. As I was wheeling my cart past the bulk section these peanut butter malted milk balls caught my eye! Well, my friends, I was on a strict diet for many weeks so these balls looked might tasty! SO....I decided to get a few. And I proceeded to eat them on the way home. Now this may seem very normal to some. But as I was eating them I had a lightbulb moment.....

As some of you may know, I have suffered from eating disorders since I was in my 20's. What I realized in that moment of peanut butter goodness was that I have changed. Now, of course, I still have issues that need working on, but for the most part I am a changed gal!!! The old me would have eaten those milk balls and felt so guilty for doing so that I would have come home and exercised for hours on end and probably starved myself for the day and maybe the day or two after. Or, it could have gone the opposite way and I would have felt like such a failure that I binged for days on end. Friday I ate them, enjoyed them and moved on. I considered them part of the cheat meal I was to have later and only felt slightly guilty about it. Of course, part of the old me still exists. I got home and thought...I should go for a walk.....And I probably would have had other responsibilities not been calling my name. So yes...still stuff to work on. But overall I am pretty thrilled with the new me!!!

So why have I changed? I'm not completely sure but I think becoming more comfortable in who I am has helped. And I really do owe this to Beachbody and the structure of their programs. I am definitely a work in progress, as are we all, but I just wanted to share with everyone what I experienced while eating those fabulous malted peanut butter balls! And they were truly fabulous.....